Why Me, Lord?
Therefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him. – Isaiah 30:18 (ESV)
Why me, Lord?
I’ve asked that question more often than I’d like to admit. Mostly in times of despair and frustration during trials, but sometimes in reference to my inability to understand why God would choose me to do such great work for the Kingdom. No matter which reason you may find yourself asking that same question, there is an answer to it; though it may not be what you expect.
I recently read Isaiah 30:18 and it came alive to me like never before. The part that made me really stop and think was the very first phrase: the Lord waits to be gracious to us. Pause and let that sink in. God waits to be gracious to us. Whenever we encounter an issue or have a question of why the Lord is allowing something, this is part of the answer. Not only are our periods of testing used for growth and development for us, they’re divine appointments with God who is FULL of grace.
Instead of a God who’s unsympathetic to what we’re going through, I can now just imagine God on the edge of His throne, anxious for these opportunities to show us just how loving and compassionate He really is. Opportunities to show up in our lives in such a way that it’s undeniable that God Himself has intervened in our situation. He actually longs to show up for us. In fact, 2 Chronicles confirms this same sentiment of God’s desire towards us.
For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him. – 2 Chronicles 16:9a (NKJV)
God is literally searching for these moments to have an encounter with us and show forth not only His grace, but His power. The problem is, we have these situations and moments of hardship and we think the opposite. We think we’ve done something wrong and God is punishing us or we’ve experienced so much disappointment from people that we don’t expect God to come through for us either. But fortunately, God is not like man, and the moments you think you’re separated from Him the most are the times when He is seeking to be closest to you.
I heard someone say once, “God will not give you a life that doesn’t require Him”. And goodness is that the truth! When you face overwhelming situations or even find yourself doubting what God has called you to do, it’s simply because He wants these opportunities to be your God. If life was always great, and you could always accomplish everything in your own strength, what need would you have for Him? How would He show you how much He loves you, how He will never leave you, and how faithful He is? We can’t constantly run from situations that require our faith and surrender, because those are the times when God is able to become most real to us.
So, why you? Because He loves you and watches over your life for these exact moments where He can do exactly what He has promised. He wants to show up for you and confirm that He is indeed God. Will you have the faith to believe that? When God is looking across the Earth for one of His children to come through for, will He be able to do that in your life? Knowing this won’t make the difficulties go away, but it should surely lighten the burdening question of why they may be happening.
Don’t look at the situations in front of you as merely problems, they’re actually opportunities. Opportunities for a divine encounter with the living God! Now I not only don’t shy away from these times, I run towards them. I want the chance to experience what is impossible with man, but possible with God. I want the testimony of God’s supernatural power having brought me through. I’m not afraid to step out on faith because it is there where I meet El Roi (Ro-he), the God who sees me. And because He sees me, He is waiting to extend His grace and ready to show Himself strong in my life and I’m confident that He will do the same for you.